i'm sorry

i feel awful... i am a cut on my head and a huge bump but the only thing i can think about is my sister. i feel bad that i started the fight about the tv. i am sorry about making your hand bleed.

hate is a strong word

hate is a strong word but i really dislike my mother! she is so annoying...she says and does stuff just to make me uncomfortable or mad. like today when she is saying stuff lilke i am going to ask you to leave because i am being " disrespectful" in front of her new client... sorry i am definding myself when she is saying stuff like i think i am funny and i'm not. and i am mean and ect! anyway i am pist at her and thought i would let it out on here cuz this is the only place i feel comfortable saying it.

today ...

confused happy sad mad and anxious! i am feeling all, the problem is that i don't know how to handle them all at once...oh and also love. today i felt love in 3 ways... family friends and boys. the boy is special he is a friend that i have had for awhile... i don't wanna ruin the friendship but i really like him. The sad thing is that i am a person he goes to for advice.. and i know who he likes and its not me. ):

love is a funny thing....

i wanna feel love but to feel love you have to feel pain after. i don't know if i can take the emotional pain. guys aren't much but just friends at the age of 5. i wish i would just feel that again, instead of love. love can put you through many things especially at the age of 13. it is a win lose situation. but just because boys can hurt us strong women doesnt' mean we need to be afraid of love. Bad relationships just make us stronger! if you show the boy that he has the power he can and will take advantage of you and your feelings. So do we really need to be afraid of love? no because we have strength and if you don't have enough you can always go to other friends for it. so yeah love is a funny thing because you can either take control or just sit and let the boy take advatage of you...

learing

you start to type and you think in your head what your going to say... when i was typing i was thinking of qoutes, moto's, sayings, and poems. all of them i made so i decided i would post them. they all mean something to me...

FRUSTRATED!!

ok well i am tryin to follow people and i am so confused how to!  i need help or i might just die! i will get so frustrated that i might explode and that would definatly not be good so samantha if you see this will you help?

friends (:

i love my dang friends... example kylee and missy!! i love them so much... they treat me right and are always there for me!! When rough times come around they are there...when good times appear they are still here! love them and always will!! (: